pagkatapos ng mga oras na kasama ko si special someone, mas naiisip ko na "i should be grateful for having him"..

siya..

sinasalo niya lahat ng badtrip sa mundo ko. he is my shock absorber kapag nga nakikita ko siya mas lalong tumitindi yung urge na maksama ko siya. i laugh more everytime i'm with him. tapos natututunan ko na rin sumaya kung ano siya[his personality]..

minsan kasi i'm looking for something that he's not and i'm wishing he was more than what he is right now. dun ako nagkakaroon ng battle of heart-and-mind. it builds up the idea of trying someone new, someone not like him. pero lahat ng pagaalinlangan na ito ay mali. i consider it as the darkest moment of our relationship. ako mismo kasi ang tumutulak sa relationship namin to be on-the-rocks. so ngayon im practicing to be more patient when he's becoming slow and i try to be more positive than before when it come to us.

good thing after all i have said and i've done just to make him go away.. he is still here supporting me in every way and still my shock absorber at times i had tantrums and or i feel bad and alone...